My name is Mindy and I am a single mom to four amazing kids. My hope story started 5 years ago when my marriage fell about. My husband and I had been married seven years and had three kids with one one the way. One day in 2011, he told me that he was done and had found someone else. I was heart broken. I remember being face down on the bathroom floor trying to just sink into oblivion, but God wouldn’t let me. I kept trying to give up and I couldn’t. God kept whispering, “It’s gonna be alright, just get up.” So I did. I asked God, “What do you want me to do?”, and He said “Love” and then led me to 1 Cor 13, which of course I had read many times before, but this time I started to really understand what it all meant. The funny thing about learning to love people the way God asks us to is that you are wanting it to change them, but it ends up working on you. The more I kept forgiving and asking God to help me forgive the more free I became and healed. I fought for my marriage for four years. There were times when I thought things would turn around, but they never did and then God said it was time to let go and move forward. This isn’t the outcome I want to tell people. I wish I could say my ex husband turned his life around. I still have hope he will turn to God some day, but my hope story is about the work Jesus did in me, in spite of the way it turned out.
You see I had made an idol out of my husband and my marriage. I had put him first and basically told God I had it under control - I knew exactly how to do this marriage thing. And then it fell apart. My whole world, who I was, my identity suddenly was taken from me. I had no idea who I was anymore. But God. He was light as I sat in darkness. He was my hope. He led me to repentance for making my marriage an idol, He took what Satan did to try and destroy me, and used it for good. I have been made new. I would never have known Jesus the way I do now had I not gone through that heartache. I now know my true identity is in Christ and He showed me that He is the one who tells me who I am. He made me whole and restored my joy and has allowed me to minister to others going through similar situations. He has been so faithful to my kids and I. Showing us He is with us wherever we go. I want everyone to know that despite the gut wrenching heartache we may experience here on earth, God takes our pain and turns it in to something beautiful. He turns it into a victory instead of a defeat. We have this hope as an anchor no matter what.
Y’all’s music has been such an instrument of healing to my soul. I think of the words in “Losing” and Worn” and how the helped me get through some of the darkest days. I have had several worship moments listening to “Lamb of God”. This newest album of y’alls has been the soundtrack to the season I’m in now as I’m finding more about who I am and where God is leading me. “I Confess” is on repeat a lot:) The whole album is really good. Thank you all for the music, the laughs and for using your talents for Jesus. You guys are truly such a blessing! Excited to see y’all at WinterJam.
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